Demented

wanna know what’s funny about transgender jokes?

Chicks with dicks, dudes with boobs?
No.
That’s not the funny part.

The funniest part is

The fact we get up in the morning and get too scared to look in the mirror in case we get overwhelmed with dysphoria, OBSESSED with looking like the gender we are inside but irritated because we feel like we can’t, to the point where we hide from our own reflection.
The fact that we barely want to leave our house sometimes because we don’t want to answer the daily pestering questions. “Are you a boy or a girl?”
The fact that needing to use to the bathroom in a public place is like waking a sleeping dog.
The fact that we have to be ashamed of our own natural bodies and wonder why a God would ever do this to us.
The fact that your options are: coming out and swearing that you were born with the same sex as your gender, or locking it away and not telling a soul.
The fact that we have to hide from the world, one way or another, because people aren’t ready for the “diversity” we bring.
The fact that my friend thought ‘transgender’ meant I was born with no genitals.
The fact that I am notorious in my town, and I can’t walk out the door without being asked why I want to be a boy if I’m really a girl? Why I don’t just identify as lesbian and move on.
The fact that shower time equals to “put a towel over the mirror just so you don’t have to look at yourself” time.

The fact that sometimes, I feel okay. Sometimes I accept that my body is my body. That I was born like this. 
Sometimes I can respect myself, because I know that one day, I’ll become who I need to be. 
There’ll be no more questions. 
No more insults. 
No more misunderstanding. 
No more mis-pronoun-ing. 
No more suicidal thoughts. 
No more self loathing. 
No more of people looking at me like I’m some sort of freak. 
No more complicated relationships with people who can’t help putting someone’s body before their everything else. 
No more cutting. 
No more worries.

But as the day progresses, I remember that people already do look at me differently.
I remember that, if I ever fall in love, I’ll have to find someone who doesn’t care that I don’t have the “parts” to be a man- someone who can understand that I AM TWICE THE MAN as the guy who just told me that I’ll never be one, so why don’t I just give up?
I remember that I’ll never have kids of my own. 
I remember that having a sexual relationship will be near impossible for years to come. 
I remember that I’m too weak and feminine to fight. 
I remember that I am still my birth-name to every register I’m in.
I remember that I look twelve years old and I will still look twelve years old when I am 19.
I remember that I am PATHETIC without my masculinity. 
I remember that people will never understand how worthless I feel- how much i’d rather be anyone else.

wanna know what’s funny about transgender jokes?

Nothing.

— "Trans Jokes"- Cody Woods (via immakinggingerbreadcookies)

(via the-boy-in-the-trapper-hat)

troyesivan:

visiblecc1:

fuglypudding:

if watermelon exists why doesn’t earthmelon, firemelon and airmelon??

The elemelons

saying the word elemelons aloud was the funnest thing ive ever done

(via the-boy-in-the-trapper-hat)

You know your trans when…

A flyer that says “calling all men” catches your attention, then you realize you can’t go to the event because you’re a female.

She loves me

She hasn’t said it aloud, but I know she does. I can feel it. She let’s it show.

qunerdi:

the movie actually managed to make me laugh pretty hard with this omg

(via travisthepoet)

ilovemichaelealy:


When yah parents talking to they friends and you ready to go.

The notes on this 😩🙌

ilovemichaelealy:

When yah parents talking to they friends and you ready to go.

The notes on this 😩🙌

(via sugared-diamonds)

jessehimself:

Autum Ashante was accepted into the University of Connecticut at age 13.
Stephen R. Stafford II entered Morehouse College at the age 11 with three majors. 
Tony Hansberry II at age 14 developed a time reducing method for hysterectomies at Shands Hospital 
Honor them by sharing this post.

jessehimself:


Autum Ashante was accepted into the University of Connecticut at age 13.


Stephen R. Stafford II entered Morehouse College at the age 11 with three majors. 


Tony Hansberry II at age 14 developed a time reducing method for hysterectomies at Shands Hospital 

Honor them by sharing this post.

(Source: rare-ethnic-images-and-truth, via purplerainonviolethill)

A Trans Man’s Love Letter To His Body

mistintrees:

I will be kind to myself.

It will not always be easy.
Many times I will lose this fight
And be consumed
By the hatred for my flesh
And I will abuse it
Through word and action.

But while I can hold appreciation
For the skin that holds this soul
I will remember
To be kind
To myself.

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I still check on you.

No matter what happened between us, or how long its been since we last talked, I still care, I wanna know you’re doing and feeling. I don’t stalk you but just enough to know you’re okay because you’re still that person I miss and the person who will always be in my heart.

(Source: tumblrsupreme, via reality-ish)